Sifa?...take a step back, yah?

I haven't posted in a while probably because nothing outstanding has happened lately (except that Ayesha's mother, grandfather, and baby brother, Ezias came to visit and it was great!). Tamia left for home today and will be in the wonderful state of Hawaii until Sunday; we miss her!
I'm currently researching some things like investments and stocks just out of interest. I have always been intrigued by business, the stock market, and bonds. I think that learning the basics of these things is essential in our world especially if you want to advance in a timely manner.
It's Valentines day this weekend and we have a couple of events planned. Facials on Saturday, dinner on Sunday,...and maybe the library?
This week has gone by fairly quickly and that is always good but it's just showing that this semester may go by unusually fast. From one aspect, it is a good thing but from another, it just means that I have a whole lot of important decisions to make in an overwhelmingly short amount of time. Am I moving into an apartment next semester? Where will I end up this summer? Will I not be seeing my family until next December? Too much with too little time.

Pass The Saltines On The Left-Hand Side

Today is my Dad's birthday and I believe that it was the first one that I've missed since...well forever. My Dad and I have a pretty cool relationship because I was his first baby; I say that because my older sister, Alex, was a child when he married my mom but when I was adopted I was the first baby he had to take care of.
It's selfish but I really dig that idea because I'm never the oldest, I'm either the middle or the youngest so I'm never "the first". Therefore, on his birthday today I would like him to know that he did a pretty good job on his first baby. I'm not in jail, I'm in school, and I'm alive, right! If that is not success then I don't know what is!
Besides that my day was pretty normal. Classes, lunch with friends, studying, and preparing for another six weeks of winter. (or so we think, I've never really payed attention to the groundhog)I've been setting goals up for myself to change and have been trying hard to act upon them throughout my day. Change is necessary and progress cannot be made if I'm static and stubborn in my ways.
Hopefully I can keep up with my undulating persona without getting nauseous.

You Just Can't "Try" IT!

Tonight, the girls and I decided to watch IT, the movie adaption of the Stephen King book about a clown who kills and eats children. It was a strange movie to randomly put in on a Monday night but Ayesha wanted to "try" again after being too terrified to finish watching it almost two years ago. I, personally, have heard that IT is one of the most terrifying movies so naturally I have tried avoiding it; almost like how I tried avoiding revelations and did pretty well until it was required reading for AP English Lit last year. All in all it wasn't even that scary; I believe that I have become weirdly desensitized to horror movies while I've been out here and I really do not know why. Those types of movies would affect me terribly when I was back at home and I expected it to be like that forever but I guess that I am not as easily scared anymore. I don't know how to explain it. Apparently, IT can be anything; your worst nightmare, your dead father, a werewolf but the only way you combat it is by believing. It had a really perverse Peter Pan complex to the whole thing and I am glad that I've grown up.
Growing up has been a goal of mine since I was a child. The last twelve years have been so painfully obligatory for me that it frustrated me to all ends. I realized that when I was a child, I would pick topics out of my Children's Encyclopedia and write essays on them just to prepare myself for the strain of education. I would make bills for myself to pay because I knew that that was what adults had to do and I did not want to waste anytime not preparing; I constantly have that fear of being unprepared and out of time. But, as I have gotten older I have seen myself become more hesitant in my actions, almost more cautionary from too much preparation, and that has made me miss out on experiences I know that I would love to look back on when I have grown up.
Therefore, I refuse to waste anymore time. There is too much that I need to do before I truly cannot do it anymore.
I cannot and will not waste my youth.