You Just Can't "Try" IT!

Tonight, the girls and I decided to watch IT, the movie adaption of the Stephen King book about a clown who kills and eats children. It was a strange movie to randomly put in on a Monday night but Ayesha wanted to "try" again after being too terrified to finish watching it almost two years ago. I, personally, have heard that IT is one of the most terrifying movies so naturally I have tried avoiding it; almost like how I tried avoiding revelations and did pretty well until it was required reading for AP English Lit last year. All in all it wasn't even that scary; I believe that I have become weirdly desensitized to horror movies while I've been out here and I really do not know why. Those types of movies would affect me terribly when I was back at home and I expected it to be like that forever but I guess that I am not as easily scared anymore. I don't know how to explain it. Apparently, IT can be anything; your worst nightmare, your dead father, a werewolf but the only way you combat it is by believing. It had a really perverse Peter Pan complex to the whole thing and I am glad that I've grown up.
Growing up has been a goal of mine since I was a child. The last twelve years have been so painfully obligatory for me that it frustrated me to all ends. I realized that when I was a child, I would pick topics out of my Children's Encyclopedia and write essays on them just to prepare myself for the strain of education. I would make bills for myself to pay because I knew that that was what adults had to do and I did not want to waste anytime not preparing; I constantly have that fear of being unprepared and out of time. But, as I have gotten older I have seen myself become more hesitant in my actions, almost more cautionary from too much preparation, and that has made me miss out on experiences I know that I would love to look back on when I have grown up.
Therefore, I refuse to waste anymore time. There is too much that I need to do before I truly cannot do it anymore.
I cannot and will not waste my youth.